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Russian Roulette

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anima12897

Published: Apr 28, 2011

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Rejected, dejected,
denied and refused.
I seemed to get more
bad luck than good.

Happiness seemed only
to be from a warm trigger
clicking an alluring enticement,
that might release the pain?

Life played me in
a game of Russian
roulette, and dare I
open my eyes & hope?

One empty shot I
thought, and five filled
painful destinies awaiting,
after a crackling boom.

Every morning was
another shot to my heart,
the dawn reminded me of
my unaccomplished dreams.

Dare I count the odds
against me, dare I cry
for a blank; since my
morning, already is dead.

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